A painful realisation

[Elenwen-argent-dawn (Elenwen)]

I still love WoW (mostly) and I still love the idea of stories happening in WoW with players, I still fantasise about the things that my characters could be doing in the world and dreaming up new characters with rich backstories. But I don’t really want to play them anymore, the motivation just isn’t there anymore.

I sat around the Valley of Honour like a common statue, watching things happen around me with some interest but not wanting to actively engage. I was a living Pet Peeve. I almost put “approachable” in my TRP for a bit of irony.

At first I thought it was because I was just too lazy or out of practice to approach people, but after a few hours I realised it was because actually I didn’t really feel like role playing. I wanted to play Cities Skylines or reinstall KotOR2, get through the backlog of games I have or just go out for a walk.

What you wrote here really resonates with me because this is exactly how I’ve felt for a long time myself. I just… don’t want to accept it. I still want to roleplay like I used to but now I fear the unavoidable truth for me is that my days are also behind me and I don’t know what to do. I really don’t want to let go.

[Akamito-argent-dawn (Akamito)]

@Akamito-argent-dawn

But he will live on in the totally epic art commission I had done for him

Someone asked me to post the commission again here, and as a man of the people I can’t help but oblige. Also because I love looking at it.

@Elenwen-argent-dawn

What you wrote here really resonates with me because this is exactly how I’ve felt for a long time myself. I just… don’t want to accept it. I still want to roleplay like I used to but now I fear the unavoidable truth for me is that my days are also behind me and I don’t know what to do. I really don’t want to let go.

It’s a bitter pill to swallow, for sure. I’m sure other posters in here can give good advice in maybe revitalizing RP for you, but I certainly wouldn’t put it behind you until you’re sure that those days are definitely done.

[Zizzleclank-argent-dawn]

I actually came back to WoW after a decade-long hiatus; I even transferred some of my characters to AD, since my old RP server was pretty dead.

I’ve not really done much RP since then though… part of that is my fault, since I have been spending a lot of time actually leveling up and such. But I also have had a lot of trouble finding decent RP in general…

Part of this seems to be that a lot of RP on this server seems very insular to me. You need to join a guild or some kind of RP circle or campaign to get anything done. Even people who are just RPing out in the streets of Stormwind or such feel like they all have their own circle of friends and such, so it’s kind of hard to just insert yourself into that and join their play.

It also doesn’t help that a lot of people seem to have moved their communications and even RP to Discord. I’m in a bunch of AD Discord groups, but I kinda find myself not especially wanting to constantly tab out of the game to catch up with people posting memes or whatever, keeping track of dozens of channels on dozens of servers. I’m not one of these young millenials who can keep track of notifications from social media every 5 seconds; nor do I particularly want to.

Like I said, a lot of this is because of my own limitations on time and energy I’m willing to put in; but it does feel pretty daunting either way.

[Akamito-argent-dawn (Akamito)]

Forgot I hadn’t replied to this wholesome post that deserves some attention.

always thought and dreamed of a day which some obstacles and IRL problems may be removed, then i become more active in wow again , then through RP, Kump and Akamito become some brotherly friends IC. I simply had it in my head, and I’m sharing it because it may warm your heart too.

You don’t dream alone, I had the same thoughts as you. In my own headcanon they would have met and become firm friends.

Anyway, hopefully we’ll have the brotherly IC friendship some day. Hell, even OOC too because why not.
And i wish the best for you and your family, Brother.

Definitely. You’re one of the best of us and it’s an honour to know you.

I’ll miss roleplaying with you, Akamito.

I’ll miss it too when your race is deleted from the game soon