Ive abused drgs for like 10 years,
Im clean for a year,
Ive stopped playing this game for a month, then went back, 5 matches was enough for me to feel exactly same symptoms of being drgged.
Why? matches are extremely unbalanced, players dont change role, infinite egoist and narcissistic people who literally shouldnt be allowed to play a team based game because they do not change their class in a COUNTER BASED GAME.
Jesus… If government were any good, they would put a label on this game as much they put on cigaretes.
This is not a game, it is a dr*g and i say: one of the worst that ever existed.
That’s what eomm does. 45~55% forced winrate, half 66.67% of your gameplay experience is guaranteed to be horrible games. Everything feels like chasing a carrot on a stick while ur getting beat up and used. Only thru pure luck you win some, a lot you can afk and still win super boring. Others you have to work for in fear of derank, but doesn’t matter cus u get forced loss teams anyway right after. Carrots… carrots…
make new account and hope it places higher. Around masters people start using comms and less trolls and throwers back to back. hit m3 and you start getting GMs or ex top 500s that will flame u and avoid then farm u every game for free wins. d1-m2 mmrs is the golden zone and u totally can get it by just making a new account and doing the bare minimum every game focusing on low deaths.
If you blame your own shortcomings on others, you have not recovered. This is a YOU problem and the sooner you can accept that, the sooner you will recover. I really wish you the best on your way to recovery and soberness.