I have my main account somewhere around high gold, with more than 300+ levels and plenty of game time. I strongly believed I didn’t belong in this rank. That all matchmaking did was also take into account all the past mistakes from the long forgotten times I was in silver. Was tired of getting +27 SR for win and -25 for defeat. Was tired of the grind speed of ranking up I ws getting, being always around 50 SR higher each season. So, I got myself this account for two purposes:
- Check if you will get placed around the same spot your main account is.
- Do not care about the rank fanatically. Do not care about SR, as this is ‘smurf’ account, just play your best, play the heroes you want and just focus on being better.
Long story short, got placed around the same SR brackets as Main. The bubble popped - I really did belong in gold. Did not carry, was not top tier player, not on the path to pro with OWL contract waiting around the corner. I, naturally, got angry. At the game, at myself. I started tilting hard on this account too. Even when the purpose was clear - git gud, I still couldn’t stomach the idea of the same SR as the main account.
I used to watch a lot of these yt videos on how to get to (rank name here). Some of them are better, some of the are as useful as inflatable dartboard. But one thing out of all the ‘positioning / map tips / aim guides’ got to me. “You are in Gold. Shotcalling or positioning mistakes will happen, you should focus on improving yourself first.”
And so, I did.
I like to think that myself - as everyone else - is tired of toxicity on the ladder (even though I also humbly accept I had my fair share in that regard). Of tilters who swap to Widowmaker mid throught the game to “hard-carry”, or Torb mains on Oasis. Of people who use the voice comms to simulate puking / burping/ farting noises, or decide to tell what they did to my mother or myself when the Defeat Screen shows up.
So what did I do at the start of Season 10?
I know this isn’t ‘canon’ way of playing the game. I do realize I might be making a huge mistake by doing this. But so far, it has worked for me more than it didn’t.
When the match starts, I turn off absolutely all communications. Match, team, voice comms. I mostly lock Tracer I was so desperate to main for quite some time, disgregarding the Torb / Symmetra mains. During the match, I use the built-in communications, asking for heals and informing the team about the ult status. I flex too, if I get countered hard.
It requires more focus on the team positioning and tracking the kill feed more closely. But my main focus is improving myself, mechanically and in terms of awareness.
I have just recently surpassed the magical border of Platinum. I’m low Plat, but I am finally plat. I don’t blame people for what they do, I focus on the mistakes I make and what can I do better and how to improve. And I don’t have to listen how trash I am, because of a mistake I did, or because of a mistake of someone else.
Maybe, if I still will continue climbing I will turn on the voice comms again. For now, I am just happy to be where I am, and am looking forward to improving in the near future. And the games were never less toxic then they are now.
TLDR:
Bought second account to test SR for Main, got placed same rank, tilted, decided to improve and focus on myself; turned off all match comms and started climbing.