Darkness swamped her senses, her body heavier than lead, weighed down as if sinking in tar. No matter how she struggled for the surface her body would not, could not, obey. Her eyes could not even bring themselves to open, not even a flutter disturbing them.
She was aware of voices, some murmured, some harsh. Cries of pain mingled with conversations she could not comprehend, yet they clawed at her mind as if she should, as if she was missing one small yet vital piece of herself.
When she twisted, the sheets pulled taught across her, a quiet groan of aching bones and pained frustration slipped past her lips.
She couldn’t tell how long had passed, perhaps moments, perhaps hours, time meant little, sheltered and trapped within herself like this.
Gradually she became aware of a presence near her, one, maybe two, she couldnt say for sure. Her head swam sickeningly when she tried to think too much, it was exhausting. She just wanted to sleep, to rest, was that too much?
Someone came closer, their voice lowered. Not someone speaking near her, but to her, gently and patiently, as if asking a question that had been asked over and over in moments before.
“Anna?”
The caves echoed as the clashing of steel and shouts of battle ricocheted off the walls until this vast cacophony of noise, this all-consuming beast that feasted upon the senses, caused it to seem that there was nothing, had never been and would never be, anything but the stifling darkness and sickening sound of battle.
The dark clawed at her mind, visions and memories twisted and jumbled.
The trials.
Part of her training.
She had been so much younger then.
Before her on the table sat a box. Around the room examiners stood behind shimmering shields of light, protecting them from the effects of the artifact sealed within.
“Welcome Thornton, you understand why you are here?”
Every student of her cohort had faced the trial today. All had gone in, one by one, and left by another door so that warning or hint could not be given.
She was the very last.
“To attempt the Trial of Conviction.”
“Exactly. Can you tell us, Thornton, what do we mean by the ‘Pact of Conviction’?”
“To give ourselves, to the final falter, for the protection, preservation and survival of one’s colleagues, for the success of the cause.”
“Word for word from the texts. Tell us Thornton, what happens when someone has given all they have, in the terms of the pact, to reach their final falter.”
Anna’s brows knit together as she found her gaze transfixed upon the box.
“They enter the state of Forbearance, Ma’am.”
“Indeed. The act of Forbearance is the body’s last defence, it allows us to push ourselves to the point of collapse if necessary, safe in the knowledge that should we be so spent, we will cannot, and will not, bring about our own demise through the depletion of our own life force.”
The examiners regarded her steadily.
“That is not to say that you are not extremely vulnerable in this state, no you are at the mercy of those around you, so this must never be a situation entered into Lightly. Others outside you can still gutter that flame of life that burns within your chest if they wished, and you would be powerless to stop them.”
“Yes Ma’am”
“And thus we come to the Trial of Conviction. This trial is quite simply to bring you into the state of Forbearance, so that you may experience it. To allow you to understand and discover where your limits are, the symptoms and warning signs to watch out for, all within this safe, secure environment. This way you can learn to recognise this process, not be blinded by fear of the unknown.”
The instructor paused, waiting for Anna to look up before continuing with her full attention.
“All knights of the Holy Light must undergo this trial and experience the Pact. If you choose not to, your training will stop until you are prepared. I shall ask you three times, as is customary. Do you wish to continue?”
“I do.”
“Are you resolved in your choice?”
“I am.”
“Will you stand Steadfast in the face of the task before you?”
“I shall.”
“Very well then. You are to summon the light as your shield, and set loose the relic from its coffer. Friends. Colleagues. Strengthen our protections.”
Anna’s gaze flit to the shield shimmering around the collective members of the staff. It shifted from deep gold to harsh, cold silver, runes and symbols brightening over the floor beneath each pair of feet.
Except hers.
The Aura of Devotion, the Lights strongest defence.
She closed her eyes, focussing within to draw upon the Lights blessings, the aura of gold shimmered around her, gleaming across her armour, lining every strand of hair. She stepped forwards, and opened the clasp on the top of the box.
The four sides slammed down, flattening against the table. A dark, void filled sphere hovered in the air above. With a sickening shift, shadows began to reach outwards. It latched onto the only energy source it could overwhelm, the only one weak enough to be harvested.
As her Light was ripped from her, she crashed to her knees.
In the otherwise silent hall, Anna began to scream.
She saw the flicker. That flash of tell-tale green. Time seemed to slow as she turned, the bolt of felflame arcing into view towards the three of them atop the ridge. She heard herself shout, throwing both hands forwards. The blast of Holy Light that left her, encased Sevestra and Modian, shielding them within the twin blessing of the Light’s divine interventions. Saving them from the worst of the impact.
But in doing so she had left herself exposed. The cost of defending the others saw her caught by the blast. Her armour seared with the heat, flames swarmed over her, finding gaps between the plates, skin corrupted, cracked and blistered beneath.
Gradually the flames died. Anna opened her eyes to find Sevestra stood over her, Modian leant back against the wall, his breath coming in ragged gasps.
“Get me - to him.” Her own voice hoarse and weak. She could feel the sickly cold sweat forming over her skin, the way her hands shook, legs trembled. She didn’t have much more, but perhaps enough, just enough for this.
As she fell to her knees before him, she braced her hand against Modian’ s shoulder. Stumbling, stuttering prayers tumbled from her lips as the last ebbs of the Light sought to find and cleanse his wounds.
Then it struck.
She reeled in agony, darkness tightened in her heart, seizing her breath within her lungs, silencing her prayers. Slamming her other hand against Modian’ s chest, she battled to keep conscious.
It was too much.
Clawing darkness wrapped itself around her senses, rending her cold, blind, and locked within herself. Her mind screamed in protest, but it was too late. As her hearing faded, a harsh, guttural laugh rolled around the cave, and Anna crashed down onto the stone.
She awoke.
Crisp white sheets pinned her to the bed. Bright sunshine gleamed from the Northshire infirmary’s stone walls. Nearby a healer turned and smiled.
“Welcome back, Miss Anna. They’d begun to worry when you didn’t surface after the second day. Theon! Will you tend Miss Anna please, I need to inform the Masters.”
Anna tried to speak, her lips parted, cracked and dry, her parched throat unable to find a sound.
The Quel’dorei mender presumably named Theon bustled over. Slipping his hand beneath her shoulders, he cradled the back of her head in the crook of his arm, lifting the canteen of water to her lips.
Anna stared up at him. His brown hair the shade of leaves in autumn was held back in a long tail. Pale blue eyes, as mild a pigment as a portrait left too long in the sun, shimmered with a golden hue. Everything about him seemed washed out. Everything except his aura. The light radiated from him, it’s presence calming, warm, and unwavering. When she had drunk enough he set the canteen aside and lowered her back into the fresh white pillows, offering her a kind smile.
“Congratulations Miss Anna. You passed the trial.”
Anna lay in the bed, the Feathermoon inn repurposed as infirmary. She surmised it had to be not long before dawn, the darkness to the west turned from black to darkest indigo.
It had been several hours since the others had retired, Hollins seemingly left at some point after she had fallen asleep.
A twitch of a smile danced on her lips as memories of the night before replayed. The Captain sat upon the locker at the end of the bed, regailing them with tales of Papoose and Clyde, a pet marmot and Gryphon battle brother respectively. Anna had answered with memories of her dappled grey mare from the Fifteenth Mounted Infantry.
Hollins had ventured that people bonded best with creatures similar to them. Anna smiled. Perhaps she had bonded with the wild, fearless horse because she was all she -wished- she could be. In reality she had been terrified of the beast, all teeth, wild eyes and temper.
Anna leaned over the edge of the bed, reaching for her water canteen. Her arms trembled with the effort of lifting it. Quenching her thirst she closed it and sank back into the pillows.
She smiled softly, eyes closing as she began to drift off to slumber, thoughts of an unusual Kaldorei, uncontrollable laughter, and unexpected blushes swirling in her minds eye. The words of a request that she could never fulfil repeated over and over until they faded to nothing.
“Don’t push yourself this far again…”