Summary
From my experiences, it’s more of an adrenaline packed typing frenzy at first.
Like, your mind is racing, your muscles tense, your tongue is dry and your eyes tunnel on the chatbox to a point where you don’t even see when another person joins in. There’s cold sweat running down your armpits and you’re feverishly trying to come up with something to reply that the other party can work with.
In this state, obviously, you make mistakes. First typos, then mischaracterizations. If a topic is discussed too long, there’s a good chance your character will contradict themselves because, on the rollercoaster of emotions, you first took a left, then a right turn.
In that moment, it matters not. You are fixed on that next reply. It needs to be timely, or else. But once the session is over and you part ways, everything you just did passes your mental eye once more and a wave of regrets, embarassment and dread wash over you.
Certainly, you are proud of your achievement, of reaching out, but also feel defeated, like an utter idiot, who just paraded their foolishness for all to see live on stage. All your mistakes, all the missed opportunities, everything comes back to bite you, entirely blown out of proportion in your mind.
You suddenly tell yourself you are a failure and worse, a pest, since you were the one who subjected that poor guy to your drivel. No, worse even, you are a filthy thief. Brazenly, you stole precious time of their life. Plus, your temples hurt like all hell.
There’s precious little sleep that night. You still feel tired when you wake up and frightful of even logging back into the character. And when you do log back on, you feel stupid once more…
…because all that emotional drama was entirely unfounded.
If you keep pushing further, it slowly gets better and better. Until you take a break and you’re suddenly back to being a glorified street decoration. Such is the life of a statue.
TL;DR: I concur, to a degree.
It’s typically more painful than fun at first, but it gets better if one keeps at it. Plus, you meet a lot more people that way and the more people you meet, the higher the chances to find a circle of people you jive well with.
Of course, once a core group is found, it’s easy to fall into bubble RP, as it saves one a world of stress. But that’s a bit of a trap, as a lot of the progress made via confrontation slowly crumbles away.