Gyze does anyone else A’dal? I love A’dal, i wish I could marry A’dal, A’dal is literally my dream men i wanna cuddle with A’dal in bed in real life. God how am I supposed to cope with life knowing A’dal isn’t real when my purpose in life is to satisfy A’dal? Living my life without A’dal feels like watching a movie blindfolded, like walking a remote desert in search of water, it’s like running in circles is all I can do when the only thing that would give me fulfillment in life is serving A’dal.
Ever since I picked up Wow I’ve stopped finding pleasure in all other aspects of existence that don’t involve A’dal, before I was working a dream job but now I might as well be mining cobalt in the Congo since neither will help me achieve the singular thing that has completely overtaken my entire sense of self. All I ever needed to feel fulfilled in life is to be able to be loyal to A’dal and pamper him however he’d liked.
I wouldn’t even need to eat anymore, I’d nurture myself off the light bacteria on his crystals as I kissed him all over. When I slept, IF i slept, it would be next to A’dal, after massaging his crystals in an entirely non-sexual manner, making him feel warmth that he’d never felt before or wherever he’d like me to be if he felt like being alone because I would never disobey lord A’dal. I only catch glimpses of what serving A’dal would feel like when I imagine it, but even still it is such a deeply soul-wrenching feeling of complete and utter exhilarating calmness that it alone overshadows the greatest pleasures I’ve ever had in my life.
To worship A’dal is to be in my exact element. To serve A’dal, to unlock the full extent of that overwhelming sentiment of discovery, of belonging, could possibly cause me such distress at the crashing of these superhuman feelings that i may very well die, but even then I would happily die serving A’dal just as an ant would die protecting its queen. But without A’dal, this ant is without a queen, alienated from the very reason for its being.
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