āA parent? You?ā
This was not the first time the Elder Druid would spend himself so much in a debate with her, but while the debates were slowly leaving an influence, those three words alone left much more, stinging deep. No one ever before attacked her role and responsibility as a mother, but he did, and within a sharp context that took place within Lionās Keep before the battle of today.
And when the battle was over, when the feasting was over, it was time not only to heal and indulge an hour or two of respite, but also reflect on all her deeds, most of all the morbid ones born of blazing vengeance.
It seems she looked too deep into the flames of Teldrassil and this alone shrouded her heart in limitless fury.
It seems she looked for too long into the eyes of the monster over the ten years past, and became a monster herself. So she mulled, so she assumed.
The gnawing amount of contemplation fueled her with so much restlessness that she left the Keep for lone wandering across the shattered roads and decimated wilderness of this utterly wartorn island, the horned guardian-mount walked protectively nearby, but was told to keep his distance as contemplated so deep. They walked miles.
As she scaled a mighty hill and walked the heights, she began absentmindedly overseeing the land below, then beheld what she assumed would be a message; an omen of clarity from a certain stellar constellation which composes the spirits of her family, lifted by the Night Warrior as with many other martyrs. This message ascertained the Elderās words to her.
This message was the sight of Nethanel, a young, wild child of Kalimdor with an abundance of feral energy, hope, happiness, positivity, and a great natural potential. The same Kaldorei who sought knowledge, training and advice from Solavel.
Except this time, the beaming and positive Wildling was broken and fragile from the inside, lamenting oh-so deeply in a display that Solavel never saw before, and this was courtesy of Solavel herself; the manifestations of her vengeance into morbid examples made of the Horde soldiersā remains. She realized that she had a hand in bringing suffering and sorrow to one who she was supposed to guide and teach, and wondered to herself if her unbound vengeance would as well consume her own children into this depression that may have consumed Nethanel.
Her developed reflection of the feline spirit whispered: "I broke her? Oops? The hunt must continue. Only survival matters. I shall terrorize the Horde and toy with them, break their will before their body, or theyāll become the predator, and Iāll become the prey, like the rest of my family.
But then, her reflection of the ursine spirit whispered: āI have a responsibility. I must saveguard the land, and I cannot do this alone. I must nurture my kin and my allies, take care of them, protect them, or they will abandon me and I will stand alone, and no matter how brave and cunning a predator is, it will fall if standing alone.ā
Then, her reflection of the avian crow spirit whispered: āā¦ or I can carry on with dispensing the wrath of nature to the most monstrous of measures, but without allowing my kin or my allies to witness it. They do not have to. All it takes is some wisdom and tactic. A pinch of clever thinking, with a careful pinch of magicā¦ā
Finally, her aquatic reflection of the orca spirit whispered: "But this would be too much lies and deception, this would feed a certain darkness in my heart. A darkness I dread. The sea always believed that I am both the tranquility of the still-seaweed and the sorrow of the crashing typhoon. But I must once again feed my tranquility, not my sorrow. Death, damage and destruction can only go so far in so little time, but healing and restoration can persist for an eternity. I must focus more on nurturing my allies and empowering them, than on terrorizing my foes and torturing them. Defilers deserve death, but nothing more. No torment, no desecration.
The predatory spirits within contended endlessly among themselves and it frustrated her, but she still reached some conclusion and clarity, and also learned a lesson from the lamenting Theroāshan she peeked at from above the mountain. This night, she would return to the Keep, in isolation by the coast near the moonwell; no horns to blow, no bodies to desecrate, no any kind of tactics to deploy.
She ripped the necklace of Horde ears off her neck with a snarl and glowered at it, then carefully buried the ears instead. Soil to soil, earth to earth, rest beneath the land in peace. She still harbored a deeply sated rage and hate for the Horde, dangerously powerful feelings that she could never recover from, but she thought to herself: āPerhaps I should use the fuel of those feelings elsewhere, in different ways. In better ways. If anything, it would settle the raging conflict within me.ā
āā¦ or it will not, and Iāll roil endlessly in the storm within.ā
Characters involved were Nethanel Groverunner and Rethion Moonshred.