fun stories,
but we all have these type of stories when we started playing the game. after using thousands of healing and resurrections spells. its no longer new and entertaining. its just another spell for us old timers.
when i started using my monk, i stayed on starting zone and practiced with npc martial artists, and meditated in the peak of serenity.
its stuff we do.
There is no requirement to lose your joy and sparkle for life in order to become a veteran - becoming hard and jaded is not inevitable consequence of experience.
Remaining soft, finding the funny in every situation, and showing compassion to others are all ingredients to a joyous life.
You should return to the wandering island and practice again. When we are busiest is the most important time to medidate.