I was young once, resilient, strong and fair. For this tale I feel needed be written to be remembered, I shanât ever forget it, nor the lesson it teaches. But neither now, shall you, my children.
Thane Olgan Stormheart was without much compassion, his strength however, could be considered that of legend amongst our own, but with all the size offered there seemed little room within his heart. His temperament forever a burden laid heavy upon this family, more-so than most, Borlahn Stormheart; your Uncle. For Borlahn was still much of youth, fool-hardy and with little interest of the matters of leadership, of -Thaneship-. Olgan hounded him for many years, attempting to craft with both word and fist a worthy successor out of the boy, for little reward. A beaten Borlahn often confided in Grahda, from whatever brief respite they could have of their father. The pair were seemingly close since a young age, from what I gathered.
But one day, Borlahn had reached the end of his tether with Olgan. The pair fought at supper, offering out curses and raised voice to the other. Borlahn didnât allow himself to show fear in the presence of Olgan, but this only aggravated the Thane more. He man-handled his defiant son, dragging him outside - the painful cries of Borlahn travelled back down the hearth. The hearty meal prepared was left stone-cold upon the plates that night, for I had not the stomach for it after such an ordeal.
Olgan returned shortly afterwards, his knuckles bloodied and raw, sitting back at the table to eat, seemingly un-phased by whatâd come to pass. Borlahn however, did not return. Now this isnât a passage to write and abuse the memory of Olgan, heâd loved for a time - and I think heâd thought that was enough. Especially for someone whoâd been raised by the likes of Balâgahn, atleast.
I remember the next morning with some haze, but Borlahn was still nowhere to be found. Heâd fled our home, having taken his beast from the roost at sunâs first light. Grahda confronted his father alongside Yarlgai; your Grandma. With some convincing, the Thane had finally decided upon a search party. At first, I was denied the opportunity to help, Olganâs wrath reached far as his dislike for anything different was deep. He scorned my family often by that of passing word or gesture. For my own father wasnât a warrior, nor of any heroic capability, a keen craftsmen in his own right - I loved him dearly. But this wasnât fitting nor suitable for Olganâs own stock to be partnered with, but try he might, this didnât phase your father, Grahda. For compassion and a large heart did my husband have, he all but earned my affection in but a single meeting.
So we all saddled up, Greatwing her name was, she was my first feathered companion and most loving of friend. When the families of Aerie Peak harnessed these wonderful, magnificent beasts for the first time, they couldnât keep such a knowledge to themselves, no. And I was beside myself with it, Greatwing was all I couldâve hoped for in an ally.
We set off, searching for our young Borlahn. The passing of time felt slow, as if the hours dragged, splitting off as we reached the great waterfall of the Verrall. I took to the west, navigating the many crags and over-looks thatâd span that weathered mountain range. Upon coming across a small opening; a cave nestled between a few blustered pine.
For whatâd looked to me like the tracks of a Gryphon, I wasnât at all hesitant to enter - striking up a prepared torch as I did. Greatwing accompanied me and we both ventured inside. I can recall the smell, vividly, a mixture of dried blood, age-old leather and rotten food. The caution of Greatwing shouldâve alerted me when the smell didnât, but I was foolish and stubborn. Calling out for Borlahn I had hoped for this ordeal to be settled, to hear the call of the lad and for everything to be alright again.
I was wrong.
My calling was a heavy-footed approach to such a situation, unknown to me, waking whatâd laid sleeping after a gluttonous feast. They awoke with a fierce and renewed appetite, a small gathering of Ettin. I turned frantically, navigating the moss-covered corridors of that cave, loosing memory of the exit by the minute. The hulking brutes, swinging wildly with their make-shift weaponry. Their lack of control brought havoc to the interior of their lair, bringing down the ceiling around us all - crushing all but myself and Greatwing.
As the dust settled, I remember opening my eyes to darkness - darkness, all but for a single strand of light no bigger than my fist piercing the veil. A singular, most welcoming strand of daylight. We were stuck it seemed, surrounded on all sides by a mass slide of heavy rock and shingle. I tried a good few times to haul what I could, but I thought against my judgment to save my strength. Iâm glad that I did.
Minutes turned to hours, hours quickly turned to days. I knew this purely from the singular beam of light, gathering my bearings on whether it shone through or not. Before we knew it, three days had already passed. My waterskin was all but down to the last drops, savouring all I could - Greatwing began to stop taking water. Food? Food was just as scarce, I had bagged a modest amount for a short venture, but between beast and I, it wouldnât last.
By day we sat opposite one another, Iâd talk aloud to Greatwing - though of course sheâd not talk back. But by night weâd cuddle together, I could start to feel her ribs beneath both hide and feather, desperately thin. I remember waking upon the sixth or seventh night, famished and fantasising over water. I remember her eyes glistening in the abyss, her face overbearing me as sheâd nudge me with her beak. During the day sheâd remain close, for what Iâd assumed playfully sheâd nip at my legs and boots. But my starved mind began to betray me, as I fear it would soon Greatwing.
The tenth morning I awoke, Greatwing was already up - facing me, her eyes tired as her head beckons closer. I believed in that moment I was going to die. That her hunger had finally overtaken her love, sheâd glance up and about my person, calling out - deafening at such a close range, despite her raspy dry tone. Unknown to her I had been sitting upon a jagged stone, for the last two days I was prepared for what needed be done - my heart fell heavy. I didnât give her a chance to attack first, brandishing the stone I bludgeoned her head. Our bodies starved and frail, I didnât stop until the deed was done, until she writhed and twitched no more.
I killed her.
I discarded the bloodied stone across the room, disgusted and hollow. Finding then the tears from my dried husk to cradle the quiet body of my dearest friend. But my mourning was short lived, I could feel the floor move - the back wall of stone dislodge and shift. Iâd cower, shielded my eyes from the blanket of dust.
I remember a distinct voice of someone who Iâd thought I would never see again. Grahda and Olgan had found me, twig-thin and on my last legs. Borlahn was in tow, heâd circled back that same day afterall - having returned to our home to have found us gone, out looking for him. Despite all thatâd come to pass, I couldnât hold him responsible for what I had done.
And then I sank down deep within my very soul, for I had realised Greatwing was not going to attack me at all, no. She mustâve been calling out to the noises beyond what I couldâve sensed. She was ready to protect me, ready to defend me should it had been a monstrous Ettin having found his way in to our stone sanctuary. And in my haste, I all but ended her life for it. A tidal wave of shame washed over me, shame and guilt.
Greatwing was loyal to the very end, I shall never forget her. In fact, I have kept her talons as tribute to her unyielding friendship. A small chain link binds them all, a most sacred trinket to me.
And every time in my life since, should I had to have made an impacting choice. I would never do so out of haste again, I would clutch her talons close to my heart and take a moment, understand all of my options before deciding.
This is what I ask of you, my darlings. You will be faced with difficult decisions in your life, for that I have no doubt. But be wary of haste and recklessness, understand your options and trust in your better judgement.
Remember the sacrifice of Greatwing the Loyal. You must be better than I, my most beloved children.